While I am in this cycle of waiting, while I do get sad and sometimes struggle with disappointment, I never, ever want to complain.
And I feel like yesterday's post definitely had some whining in there.
Yesterday was not a good day for me. And I woke up this morning with this horrible burden of how much I complain to God when others around me are suffering so deeply.
Hear me out on this - I'm not saying at all that we can't take our requests and wants and prayers and pain to God. He created me with this desire for a house full of kids! I know He can handle my disappointment and tears. But I do not want to become a woman who is so focused on what she doesn't have that she misses all the amazing blessings around her.
So, please accept my apology. I'm still working on and praying for a heart that is more and more like His. God has blessed me tremendously. May I never take that for granted!!
On to Friday Favorites.1. Explora Museum
Yesterday, Nathan and I met our good friends at Explora, a science museum here in town, and had the best time. The museum is probably aimed more for grade school kids, but there was enough that he could do that he had a blast. He got to make giant bubbles:
And he loved holding a walking stick bug (blegh. He is so his daddy's boy. You should have seen how excited he was to hold it!):
2. My Fair Wedding with David Tutera
Mom first told me about this show and it is SO much fun to watch! Basically, this guy comes in when these girls have three weeks before their wedding and completely changes everything and the girls don't get to see it until their wedding day. He seriously creates the most beautiful weddings I've ever seen. Best part? It's on Netflix Instant so zero commercials and I can watch as many in a row as I can. ;)3. Zip Up Hoodie Jackets
Source: polyvore.com via Erynn on Pinterest
I'm in the market for a new jacket seeing as how every one I've got I've had for about six years. I realized that this week since we're now out of coat weather and back into jacket weather and all of my jackets have either A) shrunk lengthwise in the dryer, B) are threadbare or C) are coming apart at the seams. Anyone have a favorite zip up hoodie they want to recommend? I thought this one was cute.
4. Cookie Dough Bites
Source: family.go.com via Erynn on Pinterest
I'm pretty sure I don't need to say more. Except I will say, you can make these in like 10 minutes from start to finish and they taste amazing and I like to pretend that they only have .05 calories in each delicious bite.
Have a great weekend!
I didn't think you were complaining, I think you were being real.
ReplyDeleteEveryone has struggles in their life and no matter what anyone else is going through our specific struggle is painful for us.
I understand the struggle of waiting, I've dealt with it a lot. There's a few things I waited on for an extended period of time. They've just started to change and now I'm realizing that even in getting what I wanted there are new struggles that need to be faced. The grass isn't really greener
But you have every right to be sad. You need to take time to feel your emotions in order to work through them and maybe posting that you are struggling on your blog is beneficial so you just get it out. The fact that you realized it and were ready to move on after a bad day is fabulous and something to be proud of. Keep having faith!
I didn't think you were complaining either, Erynn, but it was sweet of you to apologize. I think you express yourself very well in writing and I took that blog post as releasing what you had on your heart. Nothing wrong with that :) Give it to God's throne as well, which you are, and continue to trust Him with the results.
ReplyDeleteI have been praying for you and i FULLY believe He's going to give you everything your heart desires in His time/the right time. He's not withholding from you or watching you squirm; He's molding you as you wait and learn to trust Him in the process. And in the meantime He's blessing you and loving you (which you have also expressed).
You're not alone as you wait, we're all praying for you and excited for you in this journey.
Your boy is so precious, LOVE the pics you always include!
Thanks for being honest and real, you are God's jewel and He has many great things in store for you and your family :)
Blessings!
Hey, I was just at Explora on Monday! I'm from Oregon but was visiting my sisters and their kids. Did you ride the elevator? For some reason that was a huge hit with my nieces and nephews--they went crazy over it!
ReplyDeleteI didn't think you were complaining but then again I like it anytime you post. Also love science museums they were my thing as a child and I love David Tutera. My favorite hoodie is from Meijer it's just a generic hoodie nothing special but I like it cause it goes with everything
ReplyDeleteOh believe me, you weren't complaining. This is real life. I'm sure you and Jon will end up with a household full of kids :)
ReplyDeleteHi Erynn..I've never commented on your blog before, but I read it on a fairly regular basis. I dont think you need to apologize for your last post. I have three sisters/inlaws that all felt like they'd never get pregnant and one of them is still waiting. I'm still waiting for it to be God's timing for me to even try to get pregnant. You were real in that post. Most people fake it and hide away from the pain they feel making everyone else to afraid to share their hurts too. When you share your hurts, you're letting everyone else know that they arent alone. And most importantly, in your weakness, you are strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
ReplyDeletecookie dough balls definitely are delicious!
ReplyDeleteHonesty is refreshing.
Keep up the God work.
Lori